Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Really feeling it.

I'm sick...oh so sick.  I go from joy at being sick...to OMG how am I going to carry on.  Ultrasound is tomorrow.  I have two plans laid out, one for each outcome. 

Plan A - (No growth, no heartbeat, poor prognosis) - get back to myself ASAP.  I refuse to vomit if the jig is up so loading up on whatever meds I need to will happen immediately.  As soon as said nausea goes have a drink and a coffee not necessarily at the same time.  Maybe a sushi dinner.  Have S.E.X. with DH.  Then Join that gym I've been planning and get a trainer.

Plan B - (Good growth and appropriate HB - still have a hard time seeing this happen) Continue planning to have a baby.  Talk to Doc about nausea meds...just in case I can't deal.  I know that one good US doesn't make a baby but if we have a good US I will be much more inclined to think this might work out and I plan to go forward as if it is.

Putting off the US until this week was both a curse and a joy.  Waiting was hard but I also didn't have to endure the limbo that is pretending cautious optimism after inconclusive or bad results.  I've almost been serene at times.  Especially when I feel like I may lose my lunch.


2 comments:

hardtobehuman said...

Will be thinking of you until we hear the update (and after, either way, of course). Hoping like hell this will be the best Plan B you've ever gone with!

Mrs. Misfits said...

Will be checking like mad tomorrow. Lots of great thoughts from my side of the world.