Not much has changed. The eating struggle continues. I am trying to not beat myself up about it, but I have to admit to moments of despair. I know it's not what's best for my health.
Work is not helping. I had some really long days Monday and Tuesday and a long day yesterday. Today I was able to work from home, which had it's good and bad....at lunchtime I made a pan of brownies. I didn't eat them all, not even half and this is how I am measuring my success :) now. I do feel sick though. Hmpf.
I am temping every morning, and doing OPK. I started early because who knows really when I ovulate any more. So far they have been negative.
I switched to decaf, and cut out wine (had a couple of glasses last night) but am teetotaling for the rest of the cycle.
I am taking my vitamin and am going to get back on the walking wagon...I fell off this week, but really where would I have fit it in?
I'm also exhausted and short tempered...I know (from extensive therapy) that I am depressed. Not severely so, but it's there. I just hope I can hold it all together. I am trying to keep my schedule clear on the weekends, to give me time to just relax and putter around the house and get my bearings and I have this good friend who just can't sit still. She always wants to be doing and going and exploring. She is driving me crazy. :) I just want to be left alone. I don't want to talk, I don't want to go to concerts etc. I just want to be. Anyone else feel that way. It's almost like focusing on work, home and IF is all I can do...that aspect sucks.
My trip overseas got pushed back to December. So hopefully I will have figured out what I am doing by then and I go for injectable training next week...finally! but I am hoping I never have to use the training.