Well today has not been a good day. I spent two hours in urgent care after I almost cut the end of my finger off making a lovely Kale, parm and lemon salad. I was chiffonading and got a little cocky..
The Dr took off the nail to stitch up the nail bed and even with tons of lidocaine(which hurt worse than all of my stim shots combined)..I still FELT EVERYTHING. mofo
Now it throbs.
I hope this stress doesn't hurt the embryo(s) that I hope are safely implanted in my uterus. I feel a lot of guilt right now that this added stress may cause them harm. Just one more thing to worry about. Also the Dr told me to put Polysporin on it when I clean it..and um I just read on Dr Google that it's a class C drug...now I don't know what to do. I told him I was potentially pregnant...I mean you think he might have told me class C. He made a point to tell me Lidocaine is class B. I guess I'll be making a crazy call to my RE in the am to see if she thinks I should use it.
Oh and I POAS this afternoon. Yeah..I did that. I feel like a dumb ass. It was faintly positive..I think...ever so faint as to think maybe I might also be losing my mind but I realized after the fact that it could possibly still be trigger. My Beta day is Friday. I'm a dumb ass. I am 6dp3dt or 9dpo. What on earth is wrong with my will power?
I think I better go meditate on the positive if I can ignore the throbbing finger.