Tuesday, November 1, 2011

I think I may have to intervene

Nausea when you are in the midst of a precious pregnancy is one thing. Nausea and headache when you already know it's over are another entirely. I thought maybe once my body realized the crinone was gone it would do what needed to be done...and I realize it's only Tuesday and my last dose was Sunday but this is torture.

I don't want surgery. I just don't want to go under again, each surgery in the past couple of years have had me saying.."ok this is the last one" only to find myself going under again. I just won't do it.

So that leaves me with the dreaded hoo ha pills and from what I've googled and from what the Dr said it won't be pretty but it will be over fairly quickly. So that's the plan. I am going to speak to DH when he gets home from work and tell him what I've decided and then call the Dr in the am to order the meds. I just hope I'm not on the wrong side of the odds once again, ending up in the ER with an emergency D&C for bad bleeding...like some of the women I read about online....I am beginning to hate Dr Google.

I wasn't as catatonic today and actually worked from home accomplishing a good amount. I am going to go in tomorrow. I think it will help with re-animation.

I'm more angry than sad but then at odd moments I burst into tears. Humpf.


Mrs. Misfits said...
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Mrs. Misfits said...

I would do the same thing. I had a miserable two days on the misoprostol, but it was fine. Get the pain meds, full stop. And the Alw.ays overnight heavy flow overnight, which I would normally not endorse, but having read up before undertaking this myself, it dis the trick to keep the mess in check.

Under no circumstance let them give you this orally, my ordeal was prolonged by a good day or two filled with massive vomiting.

Take care of yourself and take yourself to the ER if you are even on the fence. It's way worse than a period, but with the drugs, it's a manageable miscarriage. Which is really awful, triggered medically or not.

I am so sorry about this turn, and I've had you on my mind a lot with tears welling up thinking of this robbery.

AmyG said...

Sending my best wishes for some merciful moments in the coming difficult days. My heart is with you as you face these terrible choices.

Augusta said...

awfulness. Pure and complete. I'm glad you were able to take your mind off things and work today. It's good to have something to focus the mind on. And I am darn glad for Misfit. She very sadly knows much too much about m/c. But I am glad that she can give you her educated opinion on what to do next. I hope that the drugs work fast.
My thoughts are with you, always.

bunny said...

I'm grateful you have some expert advice above, though so sad you need it. Aaarg. I'm hoping today is a tiny bit easier than yesterday.

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winter blue said...

I waited three and a half weeks past a diagnosis of no heart beat to miscarry naturally. I felt the same way about surgery and was heading on a trip and afraid of misoprostol. Miscarrying naturally in my own home was a bit intense, but, truthfully, I felt that my body knew what it was doing.

Misoprostol hurts like the devil (also from experience, I'll spare you). In my experience it is much more painful than a natural miscarriage. Give yourself as much pain meds as you can. In my experience, practicioners downplay the pain of this nasty little pill. But, maybe it varies person to person.

Hang in there. It will get better. I'm really sorry you have to go through this.