Friday, June 10, 2011

I can't comment

It's not that I don't want to. It's just that I get to the screen with the word verification and my comment field is blank. It's the most frustrating thing!

I started with an acupuntcurist group. I would say I started acupuncture but I haven't. I went on Monday and had an abdominal massage. It was very interesting. It was a little uncomfortable, sometimes actually painful. The therapist told me at the end that I may feel sore during the week and that I should expect to feel a release of emotion and that I should prepare for that. I looked at her and said yes I understand, ok thank you....but I had no idea what she was talking about until starting mid day Wednesday.

I bawled all the way home about my cat who is dying. I cried that night while watching tv, I cried yesterday over small things and sometimes I just welled up over nothing at all. This morning I cried watching the news with my morning cup of decaf.

What on earth? I thought she meant I might have some release of emotion around infertility. I had no idea it would be like this.

Power of suggestion?

Anyway, I have been eating so well this week. Several days in a row without even really trying. It's been wonderful.

I go back for another abdominal massage on Saturday because she also said I was "still blocked" not sure what that means.

Two of the ladies in the fertility group I attended are pregnant and doing well.

Did I tell you that my FSH went from 10 to 7.5! My RE was astonished...hmmm maybe there is something to this alternative therapy I've been doing? I hope so. At the very least I feel like I am accomplishing something.

Fingers crossed my surgery will go well in two weeks and I will be able to hit my IVF target end of July.

Update: So it seems I can comment on the pop up blog posts but not the embedded ones. There are three I just tried and it kept me on a continuos loop, login, comment, login, word verification, login, word verification and repeat.


loribeth said...

I have been having the exact same problem with commenting on some blogs' posts!! Annoying as all heck... but I'm glad to know I'm not alone!

bunny said...

Wow, the end of July! It probably seems like a million years away to you, but it seems so close to me. I so, so hope the surgery is a total success. Because I will have a major RELEASE OF EMOTION if there are any surprises. And super big congrats on the eating well without it being a battle. I've heard these crazy stories about people changing their diet for the better and then not even wanting to eat things that are bad for them...could it be happening to YOU?!?

linda said...

I have a Silicon Valley friend that did a "session" (20 treatments?) of rolfing (a type of massage). She was told that rolfing often brought out about a number of changes, releases, in people and that it often changed peoples lives in dramatic ways.

Shortly after her session, she did the following things:
- Sold her loft
- Quit her job
- Left her boyfriend
- Moved to London and enrolled in a graduate program

All I know is that I would have never expected all that out of her and I truly think it was due to her rolfing treatment.

So, that you are feeling a release of emotion after abdominal massage doesn't surprise me in the slightest. I don't know why this seems to happen, but it does. It's interesting.

Congrats on getting your FSH to drop. You are clearly doing something very good!!!