Monday, October 29, 2012

Irreverance is restorative.

I'm thinking of going on an "I can't make a baby moon" and getting DH to get me an "I won't get to push present".

 Just my sarcastic reaction to some things going on in my immediate life circle. Sorry if this upsets anyone. It's meant in the most sarcastic, tongue in cheek and irreverant way possible.

 I just thought I'd pop in to say I am doing fine. Holidays are hard and I think(hope) as I go through the years that those will get better. There are lots of "reminders" this time of year that make me think...oh yeah I was pregnant this time last year...oh yeah this is when I found out we were going to lose the pregnancy...oh yeah...oh yeah and it's painful but it's manageable and I'd like to keep it that way.

We are officially preventing pregnancy. I am still having intermittent hot flashes and mood swings but they are better than they were and I am hoping things will even out but it was nice this month to know that I was definitively not pregnant and that any "symptoms" I had were just my body doing it's thing for the month. I lost about 12 lbs and then stalled out. Hoping I can keep it off and then start losing again.

I've been checking in to follow those ladies I was following before but I have to admit I don't do it often and that being out of the loop has been restorative. I need to often forget what's happened so that I can put it in it's rightful place and it doesn't take over the rest of my life.

5 Years was enough to give to the infertility and RPL beast.

2 comments:

Augusta said...

It's really nice to read your update, Jennifer. Thanks for checking in. I'm glad you are doing things to nurture yourself at this point, even if it means not following IF blogs anymore and getting in touch with your irrevernace.
I think of you often.

glumbunny said...

It's good to know you're doing well enough to be irreverent. Big high fives on dropping those pounds. I bet it's hard this time of year with all those reminders, so I'm extra impressed. Here's a big hug and lots of hope that every day is a tiny bit easier.